My tears role down like razorblades

today is a special day
i was alone at home all morning
my helpless brother had to have my mummy
come along with him to his new class place,
because apparently, he can't ask for directions himself.
and he calls me pathetic.

i like it when i'm all alone at home
it's really quiet and peaceful
and it's a good time for reflecting about things.
i think saturday is my favourite day of the week
because i don't have to worry about anything
or rush around anywhere.
i work better like that, i think my work quality is
better when i feel at peace.

last night i told myself that i would rest on
my bed for fifteen minutes before doing my work
so, i lay there and my fifteen minutes stretched to
7 am today. mariel should be proud.
this is the third or fourth time this has happened to me.
i probably lack discipline
or maybe i'm just overly tired from school and emotions
or maybe, i just like my bed too much.
remind me to buy a bed with spikes,
then maybe i'll be motivated to do my work instead
of lying there and sleeping so early.

i had three pieces of bread for breakfast, which is a record
because i usually only eat one and feel full.
yesterday and today were eating days.
for lunch yesterday i ate rice with dishes,
a banana (which i got ripped off for), 3 nuggetts, 3 dumplings.
rochelle said that when i eat too fast,
my brain can't register that my body is full already.
maybe i should learn the art of eating slowly?
today i ate all the pasta my maid cooked, which was enough for 2 people
i'm beginning to think my stomach is a bottomless pit.
but, i could also be having another growth spurt? (yay!)

someone told me that if you don't control what you eat,
and don't think so much, you will get boobs.
how interesting. maybe i will be a test subject.

today i fell asleep on the window ledge in my room
the weather is really nice now.
it feels so nice and peaceful and i feel really good.
today is definitely a good day.

wonder what i'm going to wear on monday
there are so many things being celebrated that i'm confused.
do i have to wear school shoes?
yuck, that would just spoil everything.

oh mummy's home now with tea snacks.
it's barely an hour since lunch and i'm hungry again.
did i swallow a worm?
because i think some alien force
is eating all this food i'm consuming.

awesome.